Summer is the season of certainty. The Apollonian sun bleaches away gradations,
leaving us with just the clean contrast of sand and surf. But real
life is more like Fall.
This is the dappled, Dionysian time. Whether we're in school or long out of
it, in autumn we instinctively gear up for new beginnings even as the leaves
turn and fall. Like ourselves, autumn is a dappled
thing, a "landscape plotted and pieced." Back at home, we challenge
ourselves to adorn,
but also Cure. The days get
shorter, but we yearn to do more in them. A crispness in the air quickens our
blood, but the plants stop bursting forth. And we remember that a terrible fissure
can appear in the most perfect fall day.
What do we do with a season like this, of regrouping and new beginning, loss
I don't know, but William Burroughs may have a hint when he says, "When
you cut into the
present the future leaks out." Or, as Laurie Anderson puts it,
And you don't always realize it, but you're always falling.
With each step you fall forward slightly.
And then catch yourself from falling.
Over and over, you're falling.
And then catching yourself from falling.
And this is how you can be walking and falling at the same time.
--Laurie Anderson, "Walking
and Falling." Big
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