Weekend Meditation: Looking Back

Today marks the last day of regular posting this year across the Apartment Therapy network as Monday we begin our annual review that'll take us into the New Year. This is always a nice time for us editors as it gives us a chance to look back at our work over the last year and share with you the highlights. But more than that, the act of looking back is important for another reason: it forces us to acknowledge and appreciate the past year, for whatever it was, before we jump to the upcoming new year and the new you and all the ways we resolve to be better and different.

This is a always a hard one for me. I can list a million different ways that I think I should and could be better in the new year: I should cook more, I should exercise more, I should write more, I should read more. This "ideal self" pops up every year around this time. I love the idea of a fresh start, a new beginning, and I think... this year I'm finally going to achieve that.

But what happens in my rush to the New Year is that I forget about the past year, and I forget about all the good things that happened. So maybe I didn't do some of the big, life-changing tasks I had on my resolutions list (and to be honest, how realistic are those anyway?), but I did start a regular yoga practice. I gave a lot of love and time to our apartment to make it a comfortable place to be. I held a dinner party with friends where I used all my wedding china for the first time. I went ice skating in New York. I went full-time in a job that I love, where I get to write every day and learn new things and try to help people make their homes more beautiful, healthy and organized.

And that is no small thing. It's always a challenge to accept yourself as you are while balancing the desire to grow and improve. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with New Year's resolutions (I'll certainly be making them again), but I'm not going to berate myself for the person I didn't become. I'm going to be grateful for the person I am.

Image: Letterpress Coaster Set - New Years Resolution, $12 from Etsy seller LuckyBeePress

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